Disorderly Conduct: Mission Edition is out!
We’re on book 3 deviants - Disorderly Conduct Mission Edition is available on Amazon!! Hopefully a year from now I can flex about publishing 4. Let’s get to the nitty gritty because it’s been a while. This post is intense so bare with me. I’m writing it stoned, far from civilization at my rural outpost in an undisclosed location. I’m going to discuss what readers can look forward to in the newest book, my feelings around writing, and future plans with the series. Then I’ll finish up with my normal personal tea and musings.
Alright so Mission Edition. Jesus. I think the best way to start is that the sex in this book is more frequent but personal. For me (and most people) mid to late twenties was a Hell hole of bullshit. By then you’ve probably had at least one close family member or friend die. You’re an adult, but still looked at as immature by everyone else. It’s usually the first time most people have normal, existentialist thoughts. It’s another period where we all have an identity crisis. Arie reacts the same way I did at her age. She says fuck it and goes on an adventure to help other people. The point of showing Arie’s pain alongside sex is to get the reader to appreciate sex more. We use intimacy as a tool to connect with others and also as an escape from the more stressful parts of life.
At the start of the book she’s back on another humanitarian mission. I made her A LOT more mood swingy this book to show her growing pains. Then PLOT TWIST Jason asks her to move in. As he is financially independent, educated and wealthy, their families expect her to commit. Oh just wait, she is livid about it all. This is another life theme that just sucks during that age. I didn’t know what the fuck I wanted and just dated to date. I think it’s such bullshit society pressures couples to get married and in rural communities to do it young. I wanted to compare what it would look like - Arie on the field directly in contrast to Arie as a house girlfriend. The difference is shocking. Adult themes included in this one - cheating, exhibitionism, mild feederism, sugar dating, and touches on breeding themes. Trigger warning - this book contains sexual assault and I’m so sorry. There is a purpose for this scene and know that I was very careful about how I approached the topic. Do not read my book if this is going to hurt your healing.
The truth is most of the work I do on my series is when I am my happiest or most miserable. Every year that passes gives me anxiety because I know this is what I’m leaving behind when I die. It’s not profound, it’s not phenomenal writing, but it is the carefully curated fossil hand print. It makes people laugh, turns them on and feel less embarrassed about their sexuality, and that’s all I wanted to do here. I can’t explain it other than I feel like I’m running out of time and I want to make sure it gets done before I’m gone. But you people know your deviant empress… always in a rush to make more babies. 😜
After I finished book 3 I kind of had a panic attack and cried for a bit. I think book 2 and 3 proved much harder for me to write because deployment had that profound an impact on me. I don’t talk about my experience often because what I saw in real life I couldn’t expose Arie to. She’s my kid so while I’m hard af on her, I spared her much of the shit I had to go through. During my service I’ve been unfortunate enough to walk in puddles of blood on accident, almost die from a fungal lung infection, watch countless families lose damn near everything they had, and have a fatality when I was there for Hurricane Sandy.
As much as I love community service, I had to take a break from deploying in person. My heart has been through fucking enough. She needs rest. That said, I feel a lot more lighter knowing I don’t have to revisit the worst parts of those memories. I wrote my peace. For me this book was the final bit of dirt to go on that grave and I feel better. Early into this experience one of my best friends and I had a fight about it. They didn’t like how it was “reopening wounds”. Looking back I see his well meaning intentions but the reality is this process helps me. Once I write the memory as fiction, my brain gives me permission to put it back in the archives with care. I HAVE to do this for me too. You don’t have to read my books.
My future plans are somewhat up in the air. I plan on finishing the series and there will be a 4 and 5 finale. However I’m not sure if I want to record more audiobooks. Right now my top seller is print followed by ebook. The first audiobook I had too many people request it and not buy it. If I see my numbers jump on Audible for book 1, I’ll record again but right now it’s going on hold. As for another series, I’m thinking about it. If a compelling enough idea crosses my mind, trust me I’ll write it. For now enjoy what’s out on Amazon, kindle and my website.
Let’s talk about my personal tea. Fuck I feel like such a bad friend and I’m trying so hard to make up for lost time. I’m one of those people who has energy and space for other people’s problems but rarely reach out to others about mine. I’m not a people pleaser, nor do I over extend myself but I’m guilty of just disappearing when the world gets to be too much for me. Which is shitty and I should stop doing that for months at a time. I appreciate that so many of my childhood and college friends stuck with me but understand why some haven’t. I had some drama recently with friends being mad over my career pivot, but guys I went through this when I was Miss Virginia. Porn is not the only thing that alienates you. People get weird no matter what big changes you make in your life, but real friends will adjust. Fortunately I have more on the latter side. My schedule will be a little better this spring as I’ll be on the east coast more/closer to my people. Here’s to me catching up on all the life I missed. Cheers. 🥂
